But I was afraid to weigh myself because I’ve been off the wagon since the DNCC at the end of August (and I’ve been eating pretty bad lately). Suprisingly, I got on the scales (at work) and they read 249.5. That makes me REALLY happy. Even if it takes me another year to lose all the weight I want to, that’s ok. I’m feeling really good (I just biked 20 miles a few days ago).
**I had to go check and see how long it’s been. This is week 45!”
I haven’t posted my weight in a while. I have lost, but as of right now I haven’t wieghed myself in about two weeks. I’m going to wait till next week to weigh in. I did ride my bike on my running route to find out exactly how far it is. My running route, according to my bike odometer is 1.76 miles. I ran that at a top speed I could keep up and my average minute mile was 11:32. Not as bad as I thought it would be, but it’s pretty bad when I think of the Race For The Cure I did in 1996 (or 97). It was a 3k at a 7:23 minute mile pace. But I was about 70 lbs lighter and ten years younger. I don’t know if I’ll get back down that fast, but It’s my goal… at least for a 3k.
I’ve not been able to work out at all. I’m working so much, I’ve got little time to anything…including sleep. I’ve gained a bit. I don’t feel bad about it though, I know I’m going to have fluctuations. I’m going to try and find a way to ride more.
work: 259.5
I’ve slacked off this week in working out, but in refilling my Synthroid, it really made a difference. I weighed myself at work yesterday:
254.5
I’m absolutely thrilled. I can see some daylight. I truly believe that within a year from now, I’ll see my goal, and weigh close to half of what I did. So many good things are happening in my life right now. This is just another component of that joy.
I really am going to try and get more exercise. I’m averaging about 1.5 lbs a week. I’d like to kick it up to 2 lbs per week. I just have to keep in mind it took me three years to gain it, I’m losing it healthy this time. I can live like this.
And I’m so ready to….
I’ve focused more on the exercise component of losing weight. I think it’s had an effect.
weigh in at home:
260
259.8 (at work)
I’ve lost 37 pounds since December, and I should be proud about that. I should. I just am really feeling the effects of seeing the pretty people at IFGE, and my own insecurity, and having people run past me like I’m standing still when I ran yesterday. Ethan’s right, not many people my size and my age can bike 13 miles and run 2 . I know that, and to a certain extent I feel grateful. But I hate feeling obese. I hate seeing myself in a mirror. When I transitioned I felt that sense of self hatred fall from my life. Having that come back just plain fucking sucks. I just want the fat gone now. I just have to keep in mind that it took years to gain the weight, it’s going to take me months or possibly years to lose it.
I know I’ll get to my goal, but I’ve never been particularly good at waiting. And in many ways, turning 40 has made me feel like I’m playing race the clock.
I purposely didn’t weigh in last week. Being sick, I didn’t think that weighing in and getting upset with weight gain, I thought it would be better to wait till this week.
267.5
I couldn’t take it…I weighed myself early…
267
fucking ya!
I ran today for the first time in a long time, without feeling tired. I feel good right now.
272.5
Pretty much, not any movement. You think I’d be frustrated, but I’m not. I’ve been sick this week, so seeing that nothing has changed is a blessing! I’m hoping to feel better next week and hoping to crack 26oish. I’m feeling really positive about things.
272.2 *home scale*
273.0 (w)
Finally a post that isn’t backdated! Yay! Ran part of my walk… felt good. I really do love to run. Need to get real running shoes soon.
272.5
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